♥ Wednesday, May 21, 2008 ♥
Inner Scream!!
1st want to congrats Dear Dear Pass his TP test.. Finally, he managed to ride his Xiao Hei No. 2.. he brought his bike on Nov last yr.. haha.. so he was super happy abt it..
so mani tings haf happen in dis past 1mth.. mani bad stuff.. sometimes i wonder wat am i tinking.. even we quarrel, i juz keep quiet and din really tell him wat i rlly feel.. juz let everything keep in my heart and juz Ren wif all de tings he say abt mi..
I rlly dun noe wat is matured means? Everybody has different views in suitations, nt mani pple has de same view unless dey are de same type of pple.. bt den i juz dun like pple to compare mi wif some other GF and other GERS.. Do dey haf de same thinking as mi? Do dey experience de same life as mi? Are their name called MARVAL LEE PERI XUAN?
everyword ur friend say, u take those words so seriously? bt u shld noe wat person am i wen u be wif mi? dont u? A Blur, Toot, Gong, Stupid Ger.. bt y are u comparing mi wif de pple u see and haf u rlly care abt how i feel everytime ur friend say abt mi? u heard thier BGR story, last time how their bf treated dem so badly den nw de bf treat dem like jewel.. bt does tt means tt u also haf to follow their steps? do u rlly noe de details of their story? dey onli juz briefly say wat happen.. bt den de way u treat mi has slowly change alot.. tt rlly make mi veri sad and disappointed alot..
Ur temper and everything has becum worse? those words u say wen u are angry has rlly hurt mi alot.. rlly hurt mi alot.. bt i juz kept everything in my heart and din say it out.. coz is my fault for being so dumb and dun noe anything abt dis real world.. bt i'm learning.. u juz haf to gif mi time to learn.. u cant expect mi to noe it right away.. everytime we quarrel, haf u rlly sit quiety and ask mi how i? u dun haf.. everytime i'm de 1 listening to ur words and juz Ren al ur temper..
In my heart, i gt dis tinking haf u rlly placed urself in my shoes? u haf been hurt by ur past relationship, so do i.. i always gt dis feeling tt u don rlly love mi.. juz like my ex-bf.. everytime he say I LOVE YOU, bt after 1yr plus, he juz tell mi tt he dun love mi in dis past 1yr.. so de 3words he say was juz MEANLESS!! now i beginning to doubt de 3words u are saying to mi now..
Sometimes, u place ur friends in 1st position, wad abt mi? wad position am i to u in ur heart? u always so busy going out wif ur friends and wen u wif ur friends, u haf forgotten abt mi.. sometings went to meet ur friends, din tell mi whereabouts, make mi like a fool GF dun noe wat my bf is doing.. u juz simply lost in ur friends world while i juz like a stupid fool sitting nx to my hp, waiting for ur calls or msg.. sometimes i rlly feel like giving up.. bt wen u called mi i juz simpy forgive u straight. coz LOVE cover all dis..
Say de truth, i rlly hate ur friends alot.. dey dun noe wat type of person am i and simply make some casual comments like ur GF is rlly STUPID!! or sooner u and her will break up and even bet on dis kind of ting? is dis call MATURED alduts?? to mi is childesh.. FREAKING CHILDESH!! wat rights do dey haf to say dis kind of thing?? unless u noe mi well enough!! or simply like is a disgrace to haf to type of GF?? am i rlly such a disgrace to u?? bt u juz simply hear and din bother to say dem back.. am i rlly nt important to u or dey are more important to u??
Is true tt ur friends haf acc u through tough times.. so do i.. i also haf some friends tt go through wif mi.. like wen i break up wif my ex-bf, i got Zhou Rui, Jasmine Shui, Xue Zhen, Clement and Kin Leong to acc wen i i feel lonely or needed some1 to acc mi.. take an example: wenever Zhou Rui and Jasmine is free, dey wld cum and bring mi out and eat wenever dey tink of mi.. wen i rlly sad dey was dere for mi.. so wat is wrong of mi caring for dem and picking their calls? u haf friends so do i.. i dun wan to be a lonely person wen i haf prob wif u, i can onli cry wif my pillow nt wif my friends? or juz typing in a blog and crying in front of my com.. dun u tink i abit pathetic?haiz..
Sent u a msg at 12am coz is our 2mth Anniversary, telling how i feel abt dis mth and i rlly love u so much, so i willing to change to suit u.. bt den u juz simply reply mi love you too.. which i type 304 words and u juz simply msg 3words to mi.. 2day is our 2nd mth, and we quarrel again.. i rlly dun noe wat we tinking also.. all de mistakes i done, cant rlly make u forgif mi? haiz.. abit sianz la!! AHH!!
Memories of Ang3l
